Seriously...

The weather needs to start acting right and give me some heat and sunshine.

I really want to wear these without freezing my bum off, just saying.

Valentine's Day...

Is annoying.
That is all.

Almost as annoying as this girl....

Weather, School and Dating...

Here in Oklahoma it is cold. Yes, I know it is early February but dang-it I am used to short winters in Texas. Yes, the snow has been beautiful but people do not know how to drive in it. I am by no means a perfect driver but I am not afraid to drive in "bad" weather.
I am so tired of the cold.

School is going well except that I am a bit bored which can be a bad thing for me. When I get bored my mind will start to wander and I will not be as disciplined as I normally would be about outside of class studying. Why am I bored? We are going over topics that I have previously studied in other classes making this class feel like a big review. Granted we are going into a bit more detail with these topics but still nothing mind blowing enough to completely hold my interest.

I joined an online dating site {something I said I would never do} and have met one guy and am "emailing" a handful of others. The first guy I met had {in my opinion} great promise until he decided that we were not on the same page in our lives because I was in school and he was settled in a career already. Fine, your loss dude. I'm supposed to go meet another guy later this week for coffee, I'm a bit skeptical about this guy mainly because I'm not sure he is at the maturity level that I am looking for. I have been emailing another guy that is actually overseas right now in the Air Force and he won't be back state-side until August. We seem to share a lot of things in common as far as our interests and hobbies. I just worry that we will become really close over email and then meet in person later and discover that it wouldn't work out face to face. Oh the hassles of dating in this modern time. He did ask if he could write me actual letters which I okayed quickly mainly because I love writing physical letters and wish people did that more often. The hardest part about all of this is that I am a very physically affectionate person and I want to touch and hold the people I care about, with this guy being overseas that part of me is being neglected.

This is why I need a dog of my own that I can cuddle and pet when I need to be affectionate.

Well I guess I better get back to the grind of things. Bleh.

Amusing...

It's funny {in a boring kind of way} how I told myself that I would not make all the first moves in the future. That I wanted the guy to grow a pair reach out to me first, you know like they used to do.

It seems that being forward and brave {would that be the correct term?} is just a part of my nature because I seem to be putting myself out on a limb quite often lately.

I am getting better and better about opening up and not being so shy {which is awesome and all} but it is also re-enforcing the fact that when I see something I want, I go for it.

I guess because I am having to wait for so many other aspects of my life to develop that I don't have the patience to wait for a guy to screw up the courage to talk to me.

I have never considered myself beautiful so I'm not sure what I am doing that is keeping guys at arm's length from me.

Oh well. I can't dwell on this little issue.
When the time {and guy} is right, it will work out somehow.